Fuel or Filler?

Fuel: Whole foods like chicken, fruits, veggies
Filler: Processed foods

So here is my personal blog: Last night I had a piece of chocolate cake. I feel like it was sort of a waste of points. And now there is some left over and all I can think about is that damn cake! But I did make some good choices yesterday; i had a salad at a resturant as a main meal and then i also worked out for an hour yesterday. I still haven't had the weight results I wanted the past few weeks, and I would rather just not be tempted with cake. But I do know my body is changing and people are noticing the inches being lost. I just wish I had lost a little weight! But eventually my body will catch up, right?

Today's Blog:

Eat for only 2 reasons:

1. To fuel your body. Just like cars need gas, the body needs fuel. To get the best "milage", fill your tank at regular intervals, stop when it's full, and use high-quality fuel.
2. To appreciate flavors

If you eat for anything other than the 2 above reasons, you are emotionally eating. Make eating for the above 2 reasons a goal.

Wow....

So in just 2 1/2 weeks of exercising, i dared myself to run on the treadmill at speed of 5.0, zero incline for 5 minutes without stoping...and I did it!!!!!!!! It was hard and I was ready to stop after 2 minutes, but all i kept thinking about was watching the Biggest Loser and how they are pushed to the extremes and don't die. So if they could do it, so could I. And I did! I also worked out yesterday on the eliptical for a half hour and did 2.5 miles. So it was a very productive workout. I only worked 3 hours yesterday, so I took a nap and promised myself I would work out. Today I work a long day and know I won't get a session in...it is my day off from exercise I guess. It is one of those things that I almost hate taking a day off because I have the ball rolling and I don't want to take a day off and make the ball stop. Im very afraid of stoping and not starting again. But that was before and im different and committed now! Plus, my body shape is starting to change and I like the results Im seeing, even if my work isn't being reflected on the scale yet.
Day 10 blog:

Appreciate Good Support (learn to accept a compliment):

• Ask a family member or friend to compliment you on anything and reply with one of your responses:
• Thanks, I have been working hard
• Thanks for noticing!
• You really made my day for telling me that
• Thanks so much
• SMILE!

Here's what I want: (day 9 blog)

Here is what I want:

1. If you see me eating something thats not on my diet plan...don't say anything because I am committed and in control and know what Im putting into my body.
2. When im making progress, such as losing weight....compliment me on how I look in private.
3. When Im sturggling or gaining weight....tell me you notice and really care about my struggle and ask me how you can help.
4. When im making progress you can't see (such as improving my self-esteem)....ask me how my efforts are going.
5. When I have maintained my weight (even though I still may want to lose more).... tell me you are proud of my efferts and ask me if im struggling or feeling discouraged

New Week (finally)

Ok, so last week was not a good week. I am happy with the workout and think I did a great job with that aspect... I worked out a total of 3 hrs 45 minutes total for week. However, I was hungry all week long and ate about 10 beyond my 35 weekly point allowance. Plus, I started my period yesterday, which when I weighed, caused me to retain water and made my weight 171 lbs. But, when i took my waist measurements, i lost 3 inches thus far in 2 weeks. How the hell does that work...I loose 3 inches but don't loose a damn pound? errr.... it is a good thing i am committed!

Day 8 blog:

"It would help me if......"

• offer words of encouragement
• plan meals
• cook
• buy groceries
• manage the enviroment

"But please don't....."

• Make me center of attention in front of family regarding weight loss
• talk about my diet and exercise with others
• be negative

"I Can Do It!"

Day 7 blog:
"I can do it" (dieting and exercise) because....

• I am capable of anything
• I am worth it
• I feel better when I do
• It gives me self esteem and confidence
• I am committed
• I am determined
• I don't like being considered obese
• I have the tools and resources needed to make it work
• I have no excuses to not work out
• I sleep better
• I look better
• I'm worth it

I CAN DO IT!

Day 6 Blog:

"Not just yet; i'm going to wait a little while."

Identify 3 high-risk times or events to respond to food invitations by responding with the above quote:

1. family gatherings

2. Dinners here with everyone...sometimes I can't afford the calories that they cooked

3. Work when everyone orders out.

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So things are going slow. I have not lost any weight and im getting frusterated. WHY???? I am doing everything right, yet the weight simply isn't coming off. Luckly im COMMITTED and not INTERESTED so I will keep trudging along.

Day 5:

Magic Notebook

(or should I say blog?)

Good quote of the day "Im not going to eay any right now. I'll simply pospone it until another day."

A setback, a victory and a blog...

The Setback: Came home from 10 hr day at work and had 3 100 cal packs. Wasn't hungry, it was my way to relax and unwind. Why the hell did i eat 3? I should have stoped at 1. Oh well.

The Victory: My skin on my belly is becoming loose. I AM looking INCHES!!! It may not be pounds, but it is something!

The Blog:

Day 4:

Boundaries, not diets

Boundaries give you benefits, or guidelines to live by, but not burden with rules. Think of a a road...most of the time you should stay between the lines, but sometimes you have to pull off the shoulder. But never go off the road completely! Be flexable and cut yourself some slack sometimes!

Day 3

Day 3:

Take action whether you feel like doing it or not

People who are committed to losing weight:

• Stick with their plans no matter what
• assume that if they stay motivated, results will follow
• take responsibility for their own actions
• keep going despit of challenges and setbacks
• take action whether they feel like it or not (who ever feels like changing a dirty diaper?)

Today, I work 10 hours and even though I can't exercise, i am going to stick with my diet no matter how I feel, even if I am tired, stressed or bored.

Yesterday, I didn't feel like working out, but I did it anyway and ended up doing an entire hour! I felt better about myself afterwords and was glad I exercised. I feel truly committed.

Day 2 of 100

Day 2:

Are you committed NO MATTER WHAT?

Today I commit that I will be committed, not just interested in myself and losing weight. I will stick with it NO MATTER WHAT because I owe it to myself to feel good in every since of the word every day. I know that life happens, but I want to reach all my goals. Im tired of eating past full, eating when im not hungry and eating the wrong foods. Just 2 weeks of totally changing my habits and I realize I want to keep it up. For example, the exercise I am doing is making me sleep better, have more energy and gives me self confidence. The healthy food I am putting in my body helps me poop regularly and also gives me energy without the "crash". I know I didn't put this weight on in a short amount of time, so i shouldn't expect it to come off in a short amount of time. Being committed to me means that even though i may not see the scale go down, I keep on going. Or if I get sick, run out of money or time, that i find away to make myself a priority and keep going NO MATTER WHAT.

Week 1 Completed!

So a little disapointing.... I only lost 1 lb, so my weight is now 169. However, Im not worried about it because I know I did everything right:
I was honest with myself
I worked out a total of 5 days, 3 hrs 15 min total
I ate healthy
I know if I keep this up, the weight will come off. There is no turning back. I am feeling better since I got the exercise ball rolling; im sleeping better, i have more energy and i have a little more self esteeme. Why quit now?
I got this book called 100 Days of Weight Loss which has journaling for the first 100 days or so of trying to loose weight.

DAY 1:

I used to be that way, but now i'm different!

1. Make a list of any fears or negative behaviors that have hurt your weight-loss success in the past. Read each one out loud and then say, "I used to be that way, but now i'm different."

• Life getting in the way
• falling of the wagon...quit exercising, quit tracking
• blaming lack of money for quiting
• getting 20 lbs off and never hitting my goal thinking that is good enough

2. Then write new endings for them by completing the statement above.

• I used to blame life for falling short but now i will put me first and life's issues second.
• I used to fall of the wagon, but now, no matter what struggles I have, I am going to keep exercising even if it is for only 10 minutes and continue writing down all my foods. To me, a healthy life style is the priority and weight loss will come naturally.
• I used to blame not being able to afford the necessities of weight loss (memberships, healthy food, ect) but I realize that the long term, not being healthy will add up to be much more.
• I used to think falling short of my goal was "good enough", but now i know "good enough" is not the standard I deserve; I deserve to reach my all my goals in every aspect of life.

Some personal goals....

So I have worked out a little every day and im so proud of myself. I want to think of some goals for myself. This weeks are:
Write down all food/quanity
Calculate points
Some others for upcoming weeks (not pound related):
Exercise 4 x/week (or whatever)
Drink all required water
cut out caffine
stay within points
get in all fruit
get in all veggies
Aim for a **** burn of calories daily
cut out sweets
limit number of sodas
Regular sleep schedule
tracking food/ points

"Before" @ 170 lbs:

So last night, we had our meeting! Then we all exercised. I did about 15-20 minutes which is a start. Now mom is really sore and been sleeping all day cuz she took a pain pill. But I am so glad we got the ball rolling. Plus I tracked all my points yesterday (SV x 2)! Even though I ate a lot cuz I indulged on a brownie for pete's bday, I still feel like it was such an accomplished day! We will see what today brings. I plan on doing some Malibu Pilates later before dinner :) Frindge benefit...I slept great last night!

Frusterated

Ok, so we decided to do our own version of weight watchers here at home, with Wednesday nights being the "meeting". Yet here it is Thursday afternoon, no weigh in no meeting, nothin. Liz didn't want to get out in the bad weather, then we were going to at least weight in and do pictures/measurements last night, but mom decided morning was better to weigh in. OK fine. Im still waiting..... so I did myself and am moving on with my program even if they aren't. My begining weight is 170. Picture coming later.

Mueller Watchers!

So we brained stormed and came up with a free plan for all of us. Here is the program:
1. Meet on Wednesday nights @ 7 to weigh-in, have meeting, take measurements/pictures (once every 4 weeks), share journals and exercise.
2. journal everything and quanity
3. eat dinner prior to 6
4. Cook 1 healthy meal every week for all
5. Exercise 3 x /week 20-30 min
6. Weight-loss chain
7. $5.00/week and person with the most % weight loss every 4 weeks gets money.
Members:
Mom Mueller, Liz, Jess, Me
Tonight, we are going to go grocery shopping and pick up a couple of things and this week I am leading the meetings. YEAH!
Accountability and it is free (for the most part)
Basically, this will help all of us meet our goals.

Pizza Everywhere....

Errr.... Im so damn tired of Pizza. Yesterday at work, then again at dinner. Blew yesterday's diet. However...SV yesterday was that I didn't eat the crusts and I took the initiative and made a salad at dinner, which is what I tried to fill up on. Now im trying to decide between weight watchers or my own with the body bugg. I think my decision will be try it on my own for a while and see how it goes. Today is a new day, what will my SV be???

Jan 2nd, Day 2 (sort of)

New Year. Happy? Well I don't know. After a pregnancy scare in December, I was thought "here i am, pregnant again, with still 30 lbs to loose after having Gabe". Great, I was going to be one of those moms with 3 kids and weight 300 lbs from not loosing baby weight between babies. Not want I want for me or my children.
In the past, i have done weight watchers, which works. But I cannot unfortunately afford to do that again, so I am left with my own accord. I bought a body bugg, which calculates my calories burned, and i am keeping a food journal. Basically, calories in must be less than calories burned to loose weight. Simple, right?
My only fear/issue/problem is because we live with Mike's parents, I don't have a lot of control over the food coming into the house. But what i can control is food going into my mouth, so that is what I am going to do. I did buy a few diet friendly groceries, so that should help.
Every day I am going to celebrate small victories and yesterday (day 1) i did have one: Mom cooked chili, sloppy joes, hot dogs for dinner. I passed on everything except 2 hot dogs, no buns. Nobody even noticed! And I felt great about my small victory. I am charging the camera so I can get a before photo, but my "before" weight is 171.
What got me here and not being able to take the weight off up until now? Well, stress is probably a big factor. Also, is unhappiness with life in general. Plus, my medication for my OCD hasn't been right up until about 2 months ago when I started on prostiqu.
So today's small victory hasn't happened yet, but it will.....
Update: today's SV was that I played with Gabe at an indoor playground for over an hour (hey, it counts as exercise!)